I’m not ready

Tomorrow my friend is driving us back to Villanova… 

A 7-hour drive. Thanks Philip.

But I’m not ready to go back and leave these vacation days. I’m not ready to go back into reality, to school, to my life where everything becomes more consequential.

But I’ve been reading this book called The Art of Possibility

It’s written by Ben Zander, who is the conductor of the Boston Philhamonic, and his wife, Rosamund Stone Zander.

Using music as their metaphor, the Zander’s taught me this important rule when it comes to approaching not only musical performance, but also life: Rule Number 6.

And Rule Number 6 says to “Don’t take yourself too seriously”

I think I really could have used that lesson when I was in high school. When I played violin, every missed note and every mistake to me seemed like a catastrophe. Getting a B on a test was blasphemous to my morals. And of course, I was heartbroken after not getting into my dream university.

But here I am. None of that matters to me now. Why did I need to take myself so seriously at the age of 17?

I’m 19 now, and I need to still actively practice this lesson. 

I recently did very poorly on my marketing test, and it’s probably a first for me for getting such a low grade on an exam. But I spent no more than 30 minutes sulking. And moved on.

And tomorrow, even though I am going back to school, back to this reality of life that I am consciously afraid of, I think I just need to apply Rule Number 6. Don’t take myself so seriously.

Vacations are great. Reality is also great, if you can learn to not take everything so seriously. (Obviously, some things that ARE serious need to be taken seriously).

But ask yourself: will this matter to you in 5 years?

If the answer is no, then don’t spend more than 30 minutes feeling regretful about it.

It’s time to go back to reality. 

This time, it won’t feel as stressful as before, because reality to me isn’t that serious. It’s life. And I intend to enjoy it.

Oh, and what are the other rules? There are none!


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