i keep looking to the past: what my life used to be, how great it used to be
i keep looking to the future: when will i meet “the one,” when will i reach my life goals?
they say that when we are too caught up in the past or dreaming too often in the future, we do these things so that we may escape the present moment
the present moment sucks
but i can’t keep looking back
i cant keep wishing
it’s time to be here and now, and to make the most out of the present moment
The semester is almost done and of course, I am overwhelmed with a sense of bittersweetness.
Sweet in all the memories I’ve made; bitter in all the stupid tests and stress caused by examination when I want to simply pursue knowledge.
Sweet in all the fun moments I’ve had with my friends over dinner; bitter in all the pain, rejection, fails I’ve had to endure–but in an odd way, those moments are sweet too.
I’ll miss this
I’ll miss being young. I still am young, don’t get me wrong.
But as time fade, it’s a wonder why time only moves forward and not backward. If I could travel back in time, I’d travel back to these days that I am currently living because I know I am happy. I wish I knew when the “good old days” were as I am living them. Actually, every day is one of those days, I just need to make the best of them.
Writing is fun. Writing calms me.
So does meditate.
I can’t wait for the future. But I also want to preserve the past and the present.
It’s good to enjoy the moment as it comes though. And I’m trying to do that more
“Each of us is looking for a path back to the present: We are trying to find good enough reasons to be satisfied now”
being conscious about one’s self is one of the central themes of meditation and mindfulness, and equally a daunting and difficult task
We go into glimpses of this consciousness, but a sustained awareness of one’s self is nearly impossible to achieve unless you are the Buddha
But to be aware of one’s own existence, that alone, can bring peace
and that’s why consciousness of self leads to more fulfillment
Only after you are more aware of your own existence can you become more aware of other people’s existences.
It is equally a self-task as it is a relationship task
I was inspired by my high school teacher to share the books I’ve been reading and plan to read for 2019 here on my blog. Last year I finished 50 books, and although I did discuss a few of them, I think it would be good for me to reflect on each book I finish.
Meditation is weird because people often think that it is difficult (as I did too), which is a paradox. Meditation is perhaps the only time during the day that I actively try to DO NOTHING and allow my mind to be free.
This book, written by the Founder of Headspace, was a great introduction to the world of meditation and mindfulness and is also one of Bill Gates’ top 5 books of 2018.
As I’ve been using the Headspace app for the past 3 months (almost daily), I did already know many of the teachings that were written in this book. So, for those that don’t currently meditate, and would like to dive into the world of mindfulness and Headspace, I would totally recommend you pick up this book to learn more and hopefully drive you to continue on this path.
I would have to say that meditation and mindfulness practice has been the best habit I’ve picked up recently, and I will no doubt continue to consider this one of the best habits of my lifestyle that I hope may continue for many years. It’s amazing how 10-minutes a day can change your life.
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Meditation and mindfulness are often put in the same boat but in reality they are separate.
Meditation is the practice of mindfulness; however, you can live every day without meditation but still be mindful about your life.
Mindfulness is a state of peace one achieves by being able to live in harmony with the mind, body, and soul.
Do you ever walk a few blocks to go home and then end up arriving at your doorstep without any recollection of the last 10 minutes? Your body was walking, while your mind is elsewhere.
Daydreamers… procrastinators… and unenthusiastic people (or unenthusiastic situations) often lead to a lack of mindfulness
But it’s important to be more conscious of what you are doing.
A connection between the thought and the action is important because it allows us to be in the “zone”
Athletes know this. You can’t perform at your best if you don’t have this mindfulness–if you mind is wandering off while you’re trying to run down the court. It’s why Kobe Bryant and Michael Jordan both practiced meditation extensively.
The top performers in life, the most successful people I follow, all practice meditation to achieve better mindfulness. A few names include: Bill Gates, Tim Ferriss, and Ray Dalio
I’ve been meditating nearly every day for the past 3 months and I can already see the small subtle benefits. It’s no wonder that people who have been practicing meditation and mindfulness for years are able to succeed in life in every sense of that word.