The semester is almost done and of course, I am overwhelmed with a sense of bittersweetness.
Sweet in all the memories I’ve made; bitter in all the stupid tests and stress caused by examination when I want to simply pursue knowledge.
Sweet in all the fun moments I’ve had with my friends over dinner; bitter in all the pain, rejection, fails I’ve had to endure–but in an odd way, those moments are sweet too.
I’ll miss this
I’ll miss being young. I still am young, don’t get me wrong.
But as time fade, it’s a wonder why time only moves forward and not backward. If I could travel back in time, I’d travel back to these days that I am currently living because I know I am happy. I wish I knew when the “good old days” were as I am living them. Actually, every day is one of those days, I just need to make the best of them.
Writing is fun. Writing calms me.
So does meditate.
I can’t wait for the future. But I also want to preserve the past and the present.
It’s good to enjoy the moment as it comes though. And I’m trying to do that more
“Each of us is looking for a path back to the present: We are trying to find good enough reasons to be satisfied now”
I love my wife
I love my future child
Yes it’s a bit weird to say I love people that don’t yet exist
But I still feel it. I feel the potential that is there.
Just like the same potential people have for their careers, or education, or passions.
It’s the same type of love.
And I think this potential is so powerful. This love.
That’s why we need to cherish it more when we realize it.
It’s our potential that scares us, not our inability.
being conscious about one’s self is one of the central themes of meditation and mindfulness, and equally a daunting and difficult task
We go into glimpses of this consciousness, but a sustained awareness of one’s self is nearly impossible to achieve unless you are the Buddha
But to be aware of one’s own existence, that alone, can bring peace
and that’s why consciousness of self leads to more fulfillment
Only after you are more aware of your own existence can you become more aware of other people’s existences.
It is equally a self-task as it is a relationship task
I am so happy to announce that today I was accepted to Cambridge Pembroke College to study Economics and Philosophy for the Spring 2020 Semester.
I am immensely excited to work with professionals in their fields in a tutoring system where I will get to be intellectually and academically challenged in a unique system that only Oxbridge offers in the world.
And the reason I am writing this on my blog is that I feel like I want to share this happiness with my readers, my family, my friends.
Thank you for anyone who has stayed with me on this journey, either actively or passively.
I appreciate every one of you.
Don’t bring up problems unless you intend to provide potential solutions, or at least put in the effort to help work towards solutions
we know there are many problems in this world
we see them
we hear it
the media is great at telling us what’s wrong with society
let’s instead be better at saying what is good with it
for one: tater tots are the greatest breakfast dish.
One of life’s biggest questions is relationships
Choosing the right ones
And cutting off the ties you don’t need anymore like split ends
But relationships are difficult because it has to be a two-way street
What you want might not align with what the other person wants
Both people need to put on the effort
They always say the grass is greener on the other side
That may be true, but what’s truer is that the grass is always greener on the side that you water
So it’s important to work on yourself before you look for relationships
Meditation for me is about mindfulness
Mindfulness to strive towards unconditional happiness
Being able to realize that existence alone can equate to happiness
Unconditional of a fancy car, a nice house, a relationship, money, pleasures, status…
Awareness that existence alone, even for a second, can give you happiness
That is the unbounded power of mindfulness
- Curiosity to find yourself
- Courage to
- Choose yourself
No know really knows what they are doing in this life
But that’s no excuse for indecency or mediocrity
You need to have curiosity
Curiosity to find out what makes you happy and why you were put on this earth
then you need the courage to choose to be yourself
because no one else can
only you have that power
I think people throw around the word “passion” too liberally
If you are passionate about something, can you show me the results?
Your projects… your outlook… your portfolio
People who are passionate, truly passionate, have projects they’ve done
Passion doesn’t need to be told; it’s shown
Show me your passion.
We are condemned to a life of freedom.
Now, more than ever, the youth are imbued with an immense power
We have the freedom to do anything we want
but this freedom is a double-edged sword. Too much power and we fail to recognize it
Paralysis of analysis occurs
Choosing one project means closing the doors to an infinite number of other doors
How do we do them all?
Transcendence requires us to be the best version of ourselves
But how do we know we are choosing the right path? Our freedom has given us infinite possibilities. So which one is the right now? It’s inevitable you might fall into phases of nihilism while pondering this thought
We are condemned to a life of freedom
But transcendence has no asterisk next to it that entails we must choose the best option.
Transcendence requires us only to choose the path willingly, independently, and aware of our freedom to choose that particular path.
Transcendence does not require us to necessarily pick the winning lottery number. Instead, it’s an absolute dependence on self, on self-awareness of self-actualization.
Transcendence, or whatever, is about having the power to exercise our freedom.